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I also took down my donations page, so that link no longer works, I'm sure I can still accept them somehow if someone actually wanted to, but I didn't feel right, outright begging even though it was about the only option and hope I had.

It's been quite a while since I've posted here. I wanted to at least thank everyone for the kind words and helpful and positive thoughts. My grandfather passed the 28th of november, it was rather difficult, and it was cancer. I consider myself lucky to have been able to talk to him and say my goodbyes before it happened, I hope anyone else ever faced with something like that would get the chance and the courage to do so as well, It's difficult and even when you think about what exactly to say, sometimes you wish you could say more. I'm glad he knew I loved him and that he knew I was there and I had the chance to thank him for all the wonderful memories that i have thanks to him. Now that I'm writing this, I really wish that I would have told him to let my grandmother know that I miss and love her if there is somewhere after this that by chance you would get to reunite or speak with a loved one who has already gone... I don't know what to believe anymore, the only thing I believe in for a fact now is to treat others well and to live a good life. To live with integrity and positive values. I doubt anyone will read this, but I don't see what it will hurt since I'm here and can't seem to stop myself from typing. I hope by now that at least some of the people I seen on here struggling have had a better year so far. I've gotten more comfortable even though it means cutting back on many things like TV, going anywhere but maybe to shop for groceries, can't remember the last time my boyfriend and I went out for dinner. Plus side though, I'm not alone, i have a wonderful father to my son now, blood or not. The way I see it is anyone can make a baby, but it takes someone special to be a parent. My son is doing splendid. He's funny, uber intelligent and everyone always comments on how happy he is. I am so lucky to have the people in my life that I do, because things would almost be impossible. For a long while I was tackling my depression for the most part, and doing an alright job. Things have gotten so rough lately though that I actually made an appointment with a therapist which i don't do unless I start to fear for my own emotional health. Sadly after making the appointment yesterday, the receptionist called me back today and said that the therapist had canceled, and then when i asked if i could possibly reschedule I was told no. It's almost alarming that someone who legitimately needs help ends up denied. Normally I would just try somewhere else, but there isn't anywhere around here without having to drive over an hour, and I can barely afford gas in my vehicle to get back and forth to my parents or the store. I still haven't gotten a date for court concerning my disability case, which is for severe anxiety and bi-polar disorder (which i have begun to wonder if I wasn't diagnosed incorrectly), and the fact that I can no longer see or afford to see a therapist or counselor isn't going to help my case. I still get medication from my regular MD to help, but it doesn't feel like it's enough at this point, even though the one I am currently on is by far the best one I have encountered. I also wish there were some way I could get partials/dentures for my teeth. I don't know how or why it happened, but when I was born I was born without many of my adult teeth and many of my baby teeth never fell out. I probably sound like I'm complaining, and I should be happy to have the ones that I do, but my gums are constantly ripped or hurt by many foods, and then theres the fact that I'm very self conscious to the point that I'm careful not to smile. Anywho, it's getting beyond late and I suppose I'm just rambling now.. If you actually read this, thank you and I wish you well.

oh my goodness... Thank you for sharing.. These are adorable.. I miss my dog so much.. I was never one for dressing him up, but the one of the dog dressed as a turkey is just tooooo much and it did make me smile..

This past two weeks have been very trying.. First my stepfather was rushed to the hospital, turns out it was his gallbladder and he had to have a surgery, he's okay now and is taking time healing.. Then my dog, a miniature dachshund passed away, and he was quite literally one of my best and most loyal friends... I actually adopted two kittens a week later from a friend to attempt to help fill the literal void I feel inside now, only to find out from someone who had adopted kittens from the same home that they have feline leukemia, and as far as I know it's treatable, but not curable.. I don't love them any less.. I just feel badly that someone would give me two cats that could have only a little bit of a lifespan knowing that I just lost my dog that I cried over for a week, and am just now able to keep myself together when I think of him. His name was one of my sons first words.. They would chase each other everywhere and my son would laugh hysterically.. They fought over my lap and would act jealous of one another.. It hurts when someone or something you've bonded to is no longer there.. Then I ended up sick, the only energy I have at the moment is spent on my son, and all I can say at the moment is thank goodness for naps, because he and I both needed it lol. If I had a hat right now I would tip it to any parent who has chronic pain but still gets up every morning to take care of their children and goes the extra mile.. I have been doing it for a week now and it has been exhausting and has made me wonder what it's like to feel healthy, I'll be okay, I know it's one of those times where it takes time to feel better and I will, but for those who won't or have a hard time doing so I applaud you and hope your condition at least improves because you deserve it. I hope everyone has been as well as they can be, and once again, I'm always here to lend a stranger an ear. I always like to take photos when I get the chance to of things that remind me that it's good to be here, to be able to witness some beauty in the world, so maybe I'll start attaching a few when I update.

 in response to Bishop M...   Thank you I agree, I know it's impossible for one person to change the world, but it is possible for one to make an impact one step at a time.

 in response to Schmidty...   I just made a post trying to explain it the best I could openly in case someone else was wondering the same thing, it didn't even occur to me at first that some people didn't know how to go about it.. I actually have mine set up through www.webs.com It's been so easy to put together and since I spend a lot of my time at home and on the net when I have the free time I already know a lot about HTML and whatnot, but with webs you don't even have to do a lot of that since they have themes and whatnot readily available...

It's okay, it's not a big deal, I looked over the site that you have posted and all the resources you have listed and I can tell you have the best interests of people in mind, I do believe that I'm going to call the number you have listed for my state on dental services, and I thank you for having that listed because I have had some issues since I was born with my teeth and have never had the money to afford it and feel that at least it's a lead that may help.

I don't know if you're currently paying to have someone host your site, and I haven't looked into all that webs has to offer, but I guess it couldn't hurt to check it out because if it saves you some money while on a fixed income I'd be glad to know that maybe I helped in that aspect. I've never tried to make a living out of a website, but from seeing facebook and myspace and sites like that I have no doubts that you could be very comfortable if you had the right ideas.. I wouldn't know where to begin though, myself.. I'm happy to help and explain anything in any way possible, and things are so tough now that I've attempted to explore as many options as possible :) good day to you and if any of this was helpful than I can be happy knowing it.

I was questioned on the site I have linked to my account here and how I could afford it.. I thought to myself "Why didn't I share this before now so maybe other people could have the same kind of advantage??"

The page I have is set up through www.webs.com.. There you can find resources for FREE to help you set up a webpage, which is what I did before I even came across this site.. For the most part it is exceptionally self explanatory and easy.. If you have a paypal account you can easily use the HTML button to link a donate button to your account.. It has many selections for any content you'd like to put up from links to pictures to videos and news.. I truly hope that if anyone was looking for something like this, or just didn't know where to start that this might be a foot in the right direction.. If you actually decide on making one and need any help feel free to ask.

As for my internet I'm lucky enough to have a neighbor who shares wireless with me, and if I don't have the chance to use my mothers computer I visit the local library when and if I can make it.. If I can think of anything else resource-wise that I use that may help or inspire someone else I will definitely post.

 in response to Schmidty...   It's actually a free site.. You don't have to be web-savvy to set one up.. I don't mind skeptical people, and usually am not too bothered by them, but it seems as though you were insinuating something quite different than just asking a question and it kind of hurt.. I'd actually set one up for anyone if they asked, because it isn't difficult and I feel that if I have one anyone who wants one should be able to have one, even if they aren't capable of understanding how to put it together.. It's okay though. Feel free to ask questions further..

I've been to that site.. and yes, some people don't have a lot of shame, but hey, I say live and let be.. As long as they aren't hurting anyone. I'm definitely guilty of people-watching, but I myself am used to people doing so on the reverse. Your "I don't dress fancy to go to wal-mart but I at least wear pants" comment is a classic.. I just hope they got the person some while they were there lol.

I am so glad that I found this page.. Not just because I have found helpful individuals but because it gives me the ability to be one myself.. I have read so much about so many people and it pains me but also pushes me to try to find anything I can that may help in some way, or to at least send a message letting them know that someone is out there thinking of them.. If anyone who is having issues comes across my page and even just needs someone to vent to that won't judge them, feel free.. I try to look at the locations that people give and find any kinds of resources in their area.. I did the same for myself before coming here or to craigslist to post an add looking for oddjobs and to attempt to sell art, but I live in a town in missouri that's overly impoverished and it seems everyone needs the same help I do, but I don't mind trying for others.. I know I'm a stranger, but I'm here..

That is so awful.. I'm so sorry.. That poor baby, I know a similar thing happened to my ex and his daughter when he left her with the mother and her newer boyfriend at the time.. I'll never understand people who hurt their babies, I'm a parent myself and lord knows it can be more than frustrating from time to time, but I think it takes a person with some serious hate inside to not be able to set the baby down somewhere safe and walk away.. I am so sorry that you and your son will have to live with this for the rest of your lives, lord knows everyone deserves a chance at a normal life and it truly hurts to know that someone tried to take that gift from a baby.. I wish I knew your general area, I have been able to find a few links here and there for some people I have come across and would love to try to do the same for you, I also had seen something about a site for charity cars on another members page, I'm actually going to try to find that link right now so I can add it to this comment before I post it..

http://do-you-need-a-free-car-this-is-no-joke-it-s-very-real.lcollver.aidpage.com/?cid=782979#comment782979
That will lead you to the thread people have been discussing on it, and also to the link to the actual page I do believe.. I live in a rural area myself and know that in order to get anywhere it takes a vehicle and with the price of gas it is exceptionally rough.. I'm lucky and blessed enough to have a hand me down truck that my parents gave me when my car broke down, but I'm still working on getting the money to get it insured.. I hope some of this helps, and if you have access to a computer often or even through a library like me, you can always try to look up some links and resources.. I also believe that your child will qualify for medicaid and SSI which may help as it would be money in hand and could possibly help with finding you transportation to and from a doctors office for his needs, and in some cases if you are able to find a ride, some plans may reimburse you for the mileage that it takes you to get him there.. Good luck and best wishes.

http://www.homelessshelterdirectory.org/cgi-bin/id/city.cgi?city=Willimantic&state=CT

I found that online, considering you are online I'm not sure if you've already come across it, but I thought if you hadn't it may be able to help you get a few good leads on some help from food to shelters to rental assistance and dental care.. Unfortunately supplies around my area have been exhausted because the times are hard and the only reason I can make my rent is because I live in a town of high level poverty. I'd also like to say that I hope things get better for your babies and yourself...I cannot stand deadbeat fathers, my sons father is one and my own blood father was one as well, it is so hard to comprehend how someone who chose to bring a person into this world with another could ever just up and leave the situation because it's not what they feel like dealing with once it's done.. That alone is difficult enough, and I'm sorry to hear that there is more on your plate... I feel for so many of these people here, knowing that they're in a boat not so much unlike my own.. I can't tell anyone, including yourself that I know exactly how you feel, I never will, it's different for all of us, the one thing that is for sure though is that it's difficult.. I'm hoping though, and I'm not sure what may come of the links, but I wanted to try if nothing else..

 in response to kentuckylady63...   I despise cancer with all of my being.. It took my grandmother, is currently trying to take my grandfather and my mother has polyps but we're lucky enough at this point that they are benign.. I've known a lot of good friends who have lost people to cancer that seemingly would have been here for ages had it not been for it. I am always thankful for memories, no doubt. "We do not remember days, we remember moments." has always rang so true in a number of ways for me.. I agree with what you say completely, I had to learn to be more positive, and sometimes I just can't do it and feel like I'll have a meltdown, and then I stop and try to breathe because I know it wouldn't do my son any good and I'm literally all that he has.. It's not that no one else wants to spend time with him on my side of his family, just that they can't, so when I make a decision or action I always attempt to think of him and his feelings before anything, for only being just under two it's unbelievable what he has taught me... Patience, a lot of understanding and love that I'd never be able to find elsewhere.. You very welcome, I have enjoyed this conversation much..Loved ones are what matter most, they are the people who make you smile when no one else can, the least likely to judge you through your hardships and as I've learned time and time again the ones who will come running when you need them.. I still don't know what it is your husband is dealing with medically, but I will focus hope immensely that it improves enough for you two to have many happy and enjoyable days together..

 in response to brokenlady63...   I try to be as optimistic as I possibly can be.. I know it's rough, but I also know bad feelings don't make an already rough situation any better, so I make the attempt to be positive constantly... Sometimes it's harder than others, sometimes it's darn near impossible.. I'm so sorry to hear about your home, I can't imagine what it would be like to have a lifetime of memories somewhere that may be taken from you.. I have spent most of my life moving so I never really experienced a home life until just recently.. It's a shame that bad things seem to happen to good people.. I'll never understand it.. but I know it happens and it's up to each individual to find a way to live and work through it.. I hope things get better, maybe sometime we will both be lucky enough to see when it does :) I also hope for your husbands health, and that every day you two spend together are good ones.. I know my grandfather and I were estranged for a while, mostly because it was painful for me to visit once my grandmother passed, but my relationship with him has become better, only in time for me to find out he has stage 4 prostate cancer that he refuses at this point to treat.. Even if it's some time, it's better now than later and I'm grateful for the time I have with him.. I hope the same for you two.. Thank you for taking the time to send some kind words and thoughts my way.. before I came across this site it had been a bit before I had seen so many people trying to be positive to one another.

I'm in over my head, and hoping that even if someone donates a penny here or there it could add up and help... I had read on yahoo answers that some people dealing with the general issues I have created a page like this in hopes that it could possibly by some miracle help. I created mine about a month ago, and still nothing, but I don't think it hurts and the worst that I know that can happen is nothing at all..

Until May of 2010 I was a happily working single mother who was just trying to get by.. Things have changed.. I have complicated issues that have made it literally  impossible to work and have filed for disability.. I've been waiting since December of 2010 for a court date, but they apparently can take up to 18 months to receive, and then up to 6 or so months afterwards to finally get a decision.. I do have a lawyer who has taken my case for free and will be paid if I win and if I lose it's no cost which is how it is commonly worked out, so I have that to be thankful for, but it does not speed up the process. I can say I'm hopeful, because I don't think my lawyer would have taken up the case if he did not believe I could win.

Unfortunately though, because of this my family is falling apart, my bills are rapidly piling up, and from all the research I have done I have even discovered that sadly some people have passed waiting on a decision. This is not my case seeing as I'm not in danger of passing because of my disability, and I don't want to lead anyone to think so... It has never been this difficult to have food, electric, water.. My sons father refuses to help with child support, so yes, I do receive minimal state help because of it, but it is literally enough to pay rent.. I feel helpless and even worse I feel worthless.. If it weren't for my son I don't know where I'd be, but I stay strong for him and provide his needs even if it means I can't even buy myself proper necessary items that are embarrassing to even mention (bras, razors, medications)... My mother is disabled and wheelchair bound and my father is legally blind.. They need a lot of help so when they do help me with bills it's because I help them with chores around their home, run errands and take them to appointments. I have never in my life expected something from nothing, especially now days, and I honestly don't expect it to really fix any of my current issues.. If you've ever wanted to help someone, someone in need of  it, Please, like it says, even if it's a penny, they add up.. I know that now days it's easy to come by a scam, but I'm seriously facing these actual circumstances. I have tried doing as many odd jobs as my disability would allow, such as trying to sell my art and photography and I don't even know how to get those things really rolling. When things were better I gave what I could to earthquake victims, food/toiletry drives and even the lonesome veterans that sometimes sit on the curbs. In all honesty I'm hoping somehow maybe Karma for all that will set it's course, now that I'm on the opposite end of the fence.

I've never done anything like this before, and it's new to me and I really don't expect anything to come of it but I figured it was worth a shot if someone might be able to give a cent here or there... Even if you've read this out of curiosity, and don't plan on donating at all, it's okay... I know you're thinking of the person who is writing this, and they say it's the thought that counts.. So I thank you.. Immensely..

I wish there was some way of proving this was legit, that there's actually a young woman with a child on the other end, because I have had a few people question it and go as far as to call me names, I'd possibly question something like this myself, so I guess it would be naive to think that some people wouldn't. A lot of people probably wonder why I don't ask churches or friends, and mostly the reason I don't is because they don't have it to give, and I grew up more than 2 hours away from where I live now and never have the time or money to even visit with them. I also don't let anyone know how bad a shape I'm in, and that does include my family and friends and why I'm doing this anonymously.. I didn't even know how to go about this, but I just figured I'd be honest and straight forward. If you've read this far I thank you, even if you don't donate and at least hope things get better I thank you sincerely.. Because I'm not giving up hope that maybe it will happen.

I would suggest looking in the phone book for a disability lawyer if you haven't already.. Many of them will work for nothing until you are approved and most of them will not charge if you do not win your case.. If I had anything to help you with your cellphone bill I would.. I'm on TANF myself and it barely covers rent so I understand.. I know how long the disability claims process can be.. Ive been waiting myself since dec. 2010.. and could be waiting another year.. Best wishes...

Goodness.. I know how it is to have such little hope. I have good days and I have bad ones, I have been homeless and I have been on top of the world.. Right now I'm still struggling and waiting for a court date to possibly win my SSI case.. I don't know what to say really, other than it's rough.. I wish I knew your area, and what kind of help there was.. 700 is such a large amount that if I were in your shoes there would be no way that I would make it even the first month.. I live in a town full of poverty so the rent is lower.. Also in a mobile home so I just pay for a pad that my home sits on.. If your choices are a shelter or dying, think about it.. You may as well try a shelter and see what they can do for you because if you want to lay down and die you've got nothing to lose.. I hate to say it like that, and I myself am bipolar and have good days and days where I feel as you do now.. That if all life has in store is misery why keep putting yourself through it.. and my best answer is because there are better days, and life is a gift even though it is overly difficult in some cases to see past all the horrible things.. I can't say I know exactly how you feel, but i can say that I know what it's like to feel like hoping is just another chance to be let down.. You never know what may happen at a shelter though, I'm sure your case isn't much different from many of the people they have seen and helped, and if they've helped others they may be able to help you.. Other than this I want you to know I'm sorry, and I wish you had more people to help, to let you know you aren't alone.. I hope things get better... Maybe if you stick around long enough one day they will..

Today I'm just trying to make it through the day.. I'm not sure what this site is about, but thought maybe it's possible that it may help me. Today has been more so uneventful, which considering this past week, is a great thing because I'd rather have no news than bad news.. I still find it hard to sleep with everything that's on my plate..

My current situation is really starting to dampen my spirits.. I've been out of work and disabled for almost a year now and I'm still waiting on a court date for determination.. The worst part is no one ever told me that when I first applied it could take almost 2 years to win a case that is denied the first time around.. How do they expect people to keep from drowning in bills? I know it could be loads worse and it still doesn't stop me from wishing things were better.. I'm not facing an ailment that will take my life, and I've even heard of people with life and death medical issues passing before they even received their decision, how is it they can do that to families? I had seen on yahoo answers that people had set up pages describing their situation and that some people were helped so I did the same.. I figured there's no harm in it and the worst that could happen is someone could call me a name which has already happened, or maybe someone may help.. I dunno, I just know I'm ranting and trying something that's probably pointless..Thats the more in depth description.. If you read it thanks, if you don't that's okay.. http://indesperateneed.webs.com/